[U kiyo] * Japanese
(n) living in the moment, detached from the bothers of life. The floating world.

 

i want to float aimlessly like a cloud & live a long life
but my mother says; one cannot always live as he
desires. i want to die here by living the life of a pianist,
breathe my last first breath enveloped in melodies but
i gave my music away to mask my incapacitation.
i know one cannot coerce the gentle hands of destiny
but in this swoon moment detached from the bothers
of life i exist, where birds rebelliously morph into
adornments, ornamenting my wide hungry belly.
existing in the instant when my lips turns in to a giant
ballon sufficient to say “as you journey through my gut
on horseback may you find a secure passage ” but the
voice never arrives. i see a dove hovering over my head
i smile. if only i have wings, let say i am able to see the
world from a new look. if only i could fly, imagine being
able to view the world from a different look. i will let go of
my grief. if only i could reach the infinite sky, grief. i will
discard my grief so that my wings would feel lighter &
float by like the sun setting on a summer's evening.

to whatever method we try to heal yet somehow remains
broken, a hotbed doll of bat settled within each other
the discovery of endless circle of bats, within bats, within
bats, within bats, within bats, until it's completed. this is
to say every moment holds its own bile.